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I beat my eyes till they bleed and fill my ears with noise
i cannot understand
those that bask in your riches
And others that wade in a river of pain

while you fill the sails of those you love
and the ones who love breathe in dead air

but every thought seems unfair
where was i when the stars found their shine
i'm lost in misunderstanding or no understanding at all
my reason crumbles like an avalanche in the shadow of Your grace

but every thought rages against the other
death brings us closer to You
or is it further for some
but it's a bitch all the same.

death is not the end
but it feels like a lie that i tell myself to make it ok.
i can't shake the pain when the truth crashes
with the present.
Truth makes us free… but if freedom feels like this
let me bathe in these lies.

but i don't mean all these things
I live for Hope and I love for Love
and I believe it all works for Good
My heart beats in a transparent box
so I can't hide my demons
But You can cage them 'cause You call them all by name.

so Shepard on, your sheep in the valley
I know nothing of your job
but i will follow blindly
and blindly i go

your words are so foreign,
but you drown out the screams.
so for that I will welcome You
and trust You will lead.

-mp